We Talk in Two Way Monologues

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2008-08-03T05:30:44Z

I'm a little bit tamarro, and just like that I'm moving on/elsewhere.

Un tamarro dietro l'angolo voleva incularmi la vespa/ un tamarro dietro un altro angolo voleva incularmi la catenina.

incidentally I'm just waiting for the dusk to kill the day

2008-07-02T02:44:01Z

It's hard to put into words
how you feel

when you don't know
how you feel

I like acoustic emo music. I like what I like.

When I first started writing this I swear my intentions were well/ and I'd start with maybe a memory or two/ but then I saw you for the first time in a while/ and awkward thoughts brought awkward smiles/ and I left your room for the very last time and I know/ that I can't sleep/ with all of these things they're running through my head/ so I stayed up and I
I wrote this song about you
isn't that cliche' of me to do
but it's nothing for you
the band just needed something more to play
so don't blush or hooray at the possible sound of your name
no I wouldn't go that far
no
now I/ I've watched these years disperse and still this verse lacks words/ and I'm losing all but a memory or two/ ‘cause now I see you and I can't hold back a smile/ your fashion's long gone out of style/ and there's nothing left to impress me anymore/ ‘cause I know/ that I can't see
that same girl that I had known so long ago/ so I gave up and I
wrote this song about you
but it's nothing for you
the band just needed something more to play
so don't blush or hooray at the possible sound of your name
no I wouldn't go that faaar
and you're dying to know
if a thank you will show up on my back sleeve
but I don't think I'll tell
of who crafted this hell and fixed it on me to the world
I wrote this song
I wrote it about you
I wrote this song all about you
yeah the band just needed one more song to play

I'm a pawn in your game and this is checkmate. as the roses lift their heads to catch a glimpse of my demise. you'll be throwing lies around like ocean waves throw down the tides. and they are breaking on my shore. and the rescue team won't save me now I'm out too far. so I'll waste these nights for a while. but I'll be holding onto you forever. and this is where my heart is cold and torn. as I read the words you wrote last night. the butterflies are creeping through my spine. I was caught in an awkward silence. broken down by the sound of your prelude that you played. to open our symphony. I've been sleeping with the sunrise watching hours pass away. incidentally I'm just waiting for the dusk to kill the day. but now I'm waiting for your call. while I bang on this piano like you care at all. As the roses dip their heads a little further to the ground. there's a season change and all the pinks and whites have turned to brown. will we make it through the fall yeah are we gonna make it through this fall. ‘cause I don't wanna fall with you. I'm taken by your hope-filled lines. they're well designed and dragging me along. I'll be waiting for this chance and I'll be gone

Take all of your wasted honor/ Every little past frustration/ Take all your so called problems/ Better put 'em in quotations
say what you need to say.
walkin' like a one man army/ fightin' with the shadows in your head/ livin' out the same old moment/ knowin' you'd be better off//if you could only
say what you need to say
Have no fear/ For giving in/ Have no fear/ For giving over/ You better know that in the end/ It's better to say too much/
Then never to say what you need to say again.
Even if your hands are shaking/And your faith is broken/ Even as the eyes are closing/ Do it with a heart wide open
say what you need to say.

I've been told to remember. Keep your lemur eyes wide
Well i can't read her expression. 'Cause man this vixen she's sly. As she keeps me suspended. I've lost all control of this flight
Too far down. The road you know i'm scared to go down. I'm waking up anxious to lay back down. 'Cause all i can do here is wait, just you wait. So have it your way. I know you'll be watching with gallant eyes. As we shake the wreckage. And break from these hauntingly silent nights. hurry up & wait it's all you can do now.

slow down, this nights a perfect shade of dark blue. at that moment it is all clear. its something you can never fully explain, a feeling that you can never really put your finger on. everything is just so perfect. everything fits. it doesn’t matter what i was doing before, or where i am going after. in that moment, problems, and worries, and heartache, and doubts don’t exist. in that moment, all that exists is hope, and faith, and love, and happiness. i am slipping through, i am slipping into the airwaves. i am a ball of gas, slowly floating above the heads of everyone below me. the world stops rotating, yet it seems to rotate. right. around. the black and white. it’s the music i’ve breathed in for the last seven years of my life. it’s the words that always understood me when no one else did. its my inspiration, its my hope. for everything. it was me and you, and the whole town underwater. you can breathe, you can breathe now. maybe the world could look like this forever.

i had that dream again where i was lost for good in outer space. emotions are running around like madmen. when you don’t have enough time in the day to finish everything and when there’s way too many things to do and places to be and people to see. it wears you out. in a good way i think. pushing and pushing and pushing, cause hey, you only live once. i tried my best to fight the atmosphere, to think the happy thoughts that leave the phone lines clear. i’ve never been so busy and excited in my life. i’ve never been so productive. i’ve never been so alone, and i’ve never been so alive. its all so bittersweet. without you i don’t have a place that’s safe from all the monsters that hide in my head and sing me to sleep. i guess it’s the price to pay sometimes. have you ever been alone in a crowded room? where are you now?

on Monday night

2008-06-12T06:51:45Z

right after it stopped raining, the sun was setting, and it hit just so that the skyline was gold.
I always figured gold would be more yellow, but it was more orange and red. and actually glowing, not like a smooth melt into other colors, bright edges lined by the clouds.

I think thats why there are stories about gold at the end of the rainbow or cities of gold
it was really cool

6789 to 060708

2008-06-08T04:56:20Z

my life is awesome (-:

my family loves me (-:

I'm leaving now

2008-05-26T12:50:50Z

Sometimes change is for the better.

yay

2008-05-21T08:25:57Z

"Before just the daylight
Come and i stand by
Waiting to catch the quickest plane
Flying to nowhere
Is better than somewhere
That's where i've been and nothing's changed

All I wanted to say
All I wanted to do
Is fall apart now
All I wanted to feel
I wanted to love
Its all my fault now
A Tragedy for sure

Angel of mercy
How did you find me?
How did you pick me up again?
Angel of mercy
How did you move me?
Why am I on my feet again?
And I see you"

I have no regrets this year.

I could get used to this.

GOSSIP GIRL

2008-05-20T04:14:06Z

Blair is pretty much my favorite character ever. oh. and Vanessa. I kind of want to Punch Dan in the face.

Obviously I'm not studying for 14OHFUN (14.01) right now.

Ok, now, study like Blair! ( I bet she'd be really good at studying)

2cwisunclouded @ 2008-05-17T16:18:00

2008-05-17T20:19:34Z

I love onerepublic

DIGITAL HAND LOVE

2008-05-14T04:53:18Z

OMG

hilarious

2008-05-10T13:37:58Z

I actually really like this

voices

2008-05-06T04:16:38Z

there's this creepy girl who looks normal that lives a floor above me. when she talks, she sounds like a recorded toy. no joke. kind of like a furby except not cute and she's not faking it. I'm sitting next to her in a computer lab and her phone conversation is probably one of the most frightening sounds I have ever heard.

about

2008-04-17T06:32:21Z

Making your own decisions and opinions

don't assume.
for example
I just watched spider man 3
and loved it.

I want oil pastels.

2008-04-01T21:25:34Z

and a big canvas. Bright colors!

I'm feelin expressive and bursting with ideas!
I suppose I'll grab my tape recorder and head to the piano room, and that will suffice until I tackle someone with art supplies and solidify all these colors I see!

Have you ever been burned?

2008-03-25T04:25:24Z

I believe the sun should never set upon an argument
I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you
I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do
I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem
I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality
I believe that trust is more important than monogamy
I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul
I believe that family is worth more than money or gold
I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair
I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

I believe forgiveness is the key to your own happiness
I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed
I believe that God does not endorse tv evangelists
I believe in love surviving death into eternity

2cwisunclouded @ 2008-03-21T03:41:00

2008-03-21T07:42:07Z

Ernest Rutherford related the following story:

Some time ago I received a call from a colleague. He gave student a zero for his answer to a physics question, while the student claimed a perfect score. The instructor and the student agreed to an impartial arbiter, and I was selected.

I read the examination question: "Show how to determine the height of a tall building with the aid of a barometer." The student had answered: "Take the barometer to the top of the building, attach a long rope to it, and lower it to the street; the length of the rope is the height of the building."

The student really had a strong case for full credit since he had answered the question correctly! On the other hand, the answer did not prove the student's competance in physics.

I suggested that the student have another try. I gave the student six minutes to answer the question with the warning that the answer should show some knowledge of physics. After five minutes, he hadn't written anything. I asked if he wished to give up, but he said he had many answers to this problem; he was just thinking of the best one. I excused myself for interrupting him and asked him to please go on.

In the next minute, he wrote his answer, which read: "Take the barometer to the top of the building and lean over the edge of the roof. Drop the barometer, timing its fall with a stopwatch. Then, using the formula x=0.5*a*t^2, calculate the height of the building." At this point, I asked my colleague if he would give up. He conceded, giving the student full credit.

While leaving my colleague's office, I recalled that the student said he had other answers, so I asked what they were. "Well," said the student, "there are many ways of getting the height of a tall building with a barometer. For example, you could take the barometer out on a sunny day and measure the height of the barometer, the length of its shadow, and the length of the shadow of the building, and using proportions, determine the height of the building."

"Fine," I said, "and others?"

"As you climb the stairs, you mark off the length of the barometer along the wall. You then count the number of marks, and this will give you the height of the building in barometer units."

"You can tie the barometer to the end of a string, swing it as a pendulum, and determine the value of g [gravity] at the street level and at the top of the building. From the difference between the two values of g, the height of the building, in principle, can be calculated."

"Finally," he concluded, "there are many other ways of solving the problem. Probably the best is to take the barometer to the building's superintendant and say: 'Here is a fine barometer. If you tell me the height of this building, I'll give you this barometer."

At this point, I asked the student if he really didn't know the conventional answer to this question. He admitted that he did, but said he was tired of instructors trying to teach him how to think.

The student was Niels Bohr.

2cwisunclouded @ 2008-03-20T18:51:00

2008-03-20T22:56:53Z

There are people I have never officially met that I see everyday that I know things about. I always think one day maybe we'll start talking, but its hit that point where we politely ignore each other since thats what we've always done.

I wonder if people know things about me.

Sometimes I can be really shy.

2cwisunclouded @ 2008-01-12T17:57:00

2008-01-12T22:58:44Z

Beauty moves me.

especially kindness.

2cwisunclouded @ 2007-12-16T20:38:00

2007-12-17T01:39:12Z

My external harddrive may have just fried itself
taking with it
all of my music.

oh.
my.
god.

2cwisunclouded @ 2007-11-28T06:26:00

2007-11-28T11:26:31Z

This is the first sunrise I've seen in a long time.

I am so

2007-10-17T05:57:35Z

Grateful for everything in life.